Baby Limbo

Obviously the worst thing about infertility is the problem of infertility itself: being unable to have a baby. Once you’ve accepted that as a challenge and part of the burden to bear though, it becomes more of a “given.” I’ve gotten comfortable with the mindset that pregnancy without in vitro fertilization would be a boon, a … More Baby Limbo

Camping and Cramping

Some day I will get to take a pregnancy test and sit on pins and needles waiting to see the results. Some day, but not any day this week. The last instructions I had from my reproductive endocrinologist were to bang Michael for three straight days, wait two weeks and call them with the results … More Camping and Cramping

Everything is a Pregnancy Symptom If You Google Hard Enough

File this under: two-week-wait rants. We are one week into a two-week-wait that seems like it’s taken about four months. This cycle has been crazy long because our nurse and doctor were pretty conservative with stimulating my follicles. That was a little agonizing, but going to the ER with ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome definitely would have been worse. … More Everything is a Pregnancy Symptom If You Google Hard Enough

Eating For… One

Anyone who knows me well knows I love to eat. Like a lot. Sweet, salty, veggies, junk food, tofu, steak, it doesn’t matter. I will eat it. It’s what got me to a spot where I needed to drop a few (okay, 45) pounds. Eating well and (and looking forward to it every day) in moderation … More Eating For… One

Bottoms Up

We’re back at the babymaking again! In kind of an unexpected way. It’s actually a pretty short story. After three rounds of letrozole my OB/GYN suggested Michael and I make an appointment with a reproduction endocrinologist at a fertility center here in Kansas City. That’s happening next week. We’re not sure whether I ovulated the last few times … More Bottoms Up

Opening Up

Before today, Michael and I decided to share minimal information with our friends and family members about this fun little journey we’re on. I initially wanted to keep any pregnancy news between us to make it “our little thing” for a while. But now it’s become a bigger deal. It consumes about 95 percent of my brain … More Opening Up

The Starting Line

I thought I’d be pregnant by now. I thought I’d be able to surprise my husband with his impending daddy-dom. I figured I’d be buying fun maternity Halloween costumes and  one of those “Santa Baby” shirts at Christmas. I expected we’d get to concoct up one of those fun “we’re expecting” surprises for our loved ones. I thought it … More The Starting Line